Wednesday, January 07, 2009

Wed, 07 Jan 2009 02:24:50 GMT

And though i can't understand why this happened
I know that i will when i look back someday
And see how you've brought beauty from ashes
And made me as gold purified through these flames
"Beauty From Pain" by Superchic[k]

I've been through enough pain in my life to understand that sometimes after the pain subsides and the healing begins, I can always look back and see how God has brought some kind of beauty out of it. Most of the time, that beauty comes in the form of some sort of personal growth, a change in character, a new perspective of some sort, or at least a new level of compassion for others who go through pain (which is pretty much everybody!)

To be honest, the realization that beauty always comes after pain makes it a wee bit easier, insofar as I have a single thread of hope to cling to. Without that thread of hope, when pain overwhelms my life it tends to feel like I'm drowning, like this is the end, like there's no reason left to go on anymore. After all, what is the use of going through pain if you do not completely believe there will be something positive to come out of it?

That sort of hope does make pain a wee bit easier, but to be honest it does little to lessen the sting in the here and now. When I heard people talk about this concept before I used to think that somehow that thread of hope made the pain go away, but I'm beginning to realize that's not quite true. The pain is still there, as raw as ever before, but the difference is that clinging to hope gives me more strength the make it through. I'm less likely to spend so much time wallowing in self-pity, and more likely to drive myself toward picking up and moving on, putting as much distance between me and the pain as possible.

"Here I am at the end of me, trying to hold to what I can't see. I forgot how to hope, this night's been so long, I cling to your promise, there will be a dawn."
Beauty From Pain - Superchic[k]

Tuesday, January 06, 2009

Tue, 06 Jan 2009 05:16:28 GMT

Hey there, I just need a space to vent for a little bit, and I figured this space is as good as any.

“Those who do not know how to weep with their whole heart do not know how to laugh either.”
—Golda Meir

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Wednesday, January 07, 2009

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